back to work. my first job in india

i am back to work of course in worst of typical desi work atmospheres. 1 week of travelling of about 75km two way from home to work and back leaves me with no time and energy to even think of anything else... let alone looking after buvi's basic needs...

i am at work because i need the job! my inlaws taking care of the baby while i am away.

i'd call myself a loser if i am going to stick with this job. i have to look for a better opportunity, a reasonable one which will allow me to thrive not just survive.

omg! the politics, egos, hypocrisy and some lethargy this is how i'd describe my work place & people during my first week at work in India. uh, hope it improves. hope i will feel better. or may be i will get used to it sooner or later.

what's good abt it? i am rediscovering my professional life.

today seems to be one of those lowest lows of emotional roller coaster ride. don't ask why.. can't tell... just not happy with my life after coming bk to India.

got to do something about... go to work on it...

Comments

Bozo said…
Its just a start and for sure you will get the right oppurtunity you are looking for., All the Best., :)
3/23/10, 12:36 PM
Deepu said…
yup yup :) thanks Bozo
3/28/10, 9:35 PM
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