Married and Single!

ante idenemo..

with vj leavin to mumbai for his job and leavin me behind all by myself in California, I feel so lonely and devoid of normal life.

it was so saddening, depressing the first few weeks thinking i won't be able to see vj or even talk to him when i want to. thinking that he will not return and i have wrap up stuff here asap to go to him. there is so much to do and i can't wait to get done with it...

i don't eat/sleep or work/live the way i used to when vj was here... it was more organised and happening all the time then. it is now a chaos or more like whenever i feel like to do sth, I do... i am hungry at 2AM or i feel sleepy at 4PM. i go out to movies by myself or i hang out with my married friends only to miss VJ even more... :) it is difficult having to live alone after being married. taking care so many things all by myself.. double the stuff to worry abt now.. Stress with a Big S

and the next phase a few weeks past, i am glad to have such caring sweet people around me who keep checkin on me and callin to hang out whenevr they get a chance.. i am glad i have all the time in this world. i get the chance to be innovative.. on how to use to the time wisely to make myself better ;)just unwind and refresh.

i write, i read, i play Wii a lot. i got in touch with my old buddies, socializing a bit more, spendin quality time at work and with colleagues, where i am learnin valuable stuff for me n my resume...
i am watchin movies a lottt... drivin around listenin to songs, window shoppin... shoppin, indulgin myself, just having FunN.. being married and single! ...
and waiting to get back home all rejuvenated :)

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Sailaja said…
Hey Deepthi...interesting..So all set to get bak??? Will call u sometime..
6/19/08, 11:46 PM
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