I am what I am ...

And you are what you are. we shouldn't keep changing because of something or someone; if we do, then we would loose our unique identity and Everyone is unique as is their DNA!

I regret a few times, people don't get to see the real me, may be because they run out of time or patience or I am a little boring sometimes because I have become so used to being preoccupied in a world of my own, without the need for another person to make me feel better or bigger. Can you blame me? I spent so much time in loneliness and depression during a certain struggling phase of my life. Now I am out of it or at least I think, for better.

Actually, if one can strike a conversation, they will be amazed to find how exciting and fascinating my company could be… music, dance, astronomy, science, technology, home décor, culinary, fashion, news, trends or plain gossip (giggles) … are some of the many things I can talk about and enjoy.

If I am naughty, blame the chance and if I am nice it is out of choice. ;)

I laugh. I cry. I dream. I desire. I want. I wish. I love. I give. I forgive. I respect. I strive. I survive…

I like to do whatever I want to do. If I loose interest in anything, cannot pursue it further. But I am people pleaser, and go out of my way to entertain/please someone i like or care about!

I work my brain a bit too much on a daily basis and I need to give it enough rest to reboot and refresh. i htink, I think too much and i should take it easy a little ;). I am working on that.

I like any typical girl/person want a normal life, comfort, fame, name, love, money and a chance to know and enjoy the wonders of the world, with a balance of good and bad, happiness and sorrow, positive and negative things. My life, though, seems to be swinging biased towards the negativity since last couple of years.

I have been learning lessons in life the toughest and the most brutal way ... and, I almost gave up. Well almost but didn't, I am a survivor!

I wake up each morning with hope, that today will be better then yesterday or thinking it could have gotten worse but didn't. So it is all good.

All is well that ends well, and I believe this is just the beginning.

I am what I am… not the best, the smartest or the always right one... but I learn from my mistakes, I believe in continuous improvement, I live and let live and try to enjoy life the fullest I can.

I ain’t gonna live forever…
I am gonna live while I am alive… JBJ

Speak the words on your list, No one else speak them for you

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten… NB

"Esse Quam Videri" hence the blog and more to come... :)

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Peace and Cheer.

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